Labor? NOT..

I've been rotting at home for the longest time in my life that I don't know how it feels to be outside under the sun again..LOL.. This is mainly because I will be going into labor anytime soon so that's the reason why.. Everything's been good for me and I hope my baby will be greeting the world healthily. =) I've been looking up for information for contraction, water brokes and stuffs related to labor because I have no idea about it at all. Of course at this time of my life, I started to feel nervous because I do not know what to expect.. So, gotta do some homework..

It was Valentine's Day last Tuesday. I did not celebrate it with my hubby. Hmm~ As far as I remembered, we've not been celebrating it since 2 years ago.. Hahaha.. It seems like he is not a romantic person. I stayed home that day as usual but did received the best Valentine's gift that day. My results was released on that very romantic days and thank god, I passed which also means I'm officially graduated. I'm still very worry a day b4 as I'm not doing very good in one of my papers. I even checked the resit date as I'm very afraid that it will clash with my confinement. But now, everything seems to go on smoothly for me.. I feel blessed definitely although my gcpa is quite low.. But at least I graduated, that is the most important thing and my baby will be able to attend my graduation with me.. Special? I guess so..

Yesterday, I was at home as usual and hubby was back late from work. Late as in 12 something at night. I was ready to sleep when I saw a baby cockroach somewhere near my bed. Gross max! I don't dare to catch it nor do anything to it so all I did was staring at it and waited for my hubby to come back.. Yeah, he do all the jobs.. That is why we need a man at home. LOL.. Just as I'm ready to sleep, I'm having a cramp like pain in my upper abdomen. It was slightly like period pain and also gastric pain. I couldn't describe it. It came on and off. Pain then went off then pain again. I really thought I was going into labor but when hubby rub my tummy, it actually ease the pain so I guess it's not contraction after all.. After half and hour or so, it went off completely and hubby asked me to sleep so that it makes me feel better. And I'm able to sleep the whole night without waking up. I guess if nothing happens today, I will ask the doctor tmr as I will be going to the hospital again tmr.. I really wonder if my baby is ready to meet the world.. We will see.. =)

My baby girl

Today marks the 100th day of my dad's death.. Mum did a massive prayers for him and invited most of my relatives to my house because daddy loves having many people around. We even changed daddy's picture in living room into our family photo.

I'm going to give birth to my baby girl anytime now. It merely depends on when she wants to see the world. I'm having mixed feeling right now because I want to see her soon but do not fully prepared for what is going to happened during delivery. LOL. Nine months passed so fast. Right until last month that I felt that I'm having a baby because this is the time when I'm finally free to relax and feel her.. Previously, I still need to attend classes and also write my thesis so I'm kind of busy. Of course I can feel her presence because she constantly kicks me.. =) Since it is the last month of my pregnancy, I constantly feels tired and also hard to sleep. I hardly can find a comfortable position to sleep. Plus, I always wake up in the middle of the night to go to the loo. No choice coz my bladder tends to be full easily. But, I still managed to get few hours of sleep every night. Sometimes, I nap in the afternoon..

Now, I'm done buying my baby's stuff and I find myself loves doing baby shopping. Everything for her feels so nice and cute. I wished to buy everything for her but cannot. Hehe.. In the end, I only get what she needs. I have to go to hospital once a week for regular check ups and the waiting is killing me.. I have to sits there for hours just to wait for the doctor but thank god, hubby is there with me all the time. He did not missed even once. *loves* In the end of my pregnancy, I have to do tons of things such as counting the times my baby kicks in a day, taking care of my diet, regular check ups every week and etc. In one word, pregnancy is not easy. So, pls be good to your mom.. LOL

Baby baby, when did you want to come out?

Happy Chinese New Year?

2 more days to CNY.. It should be a very happy and exciting festive season right? But nothing about CNY excites me.. Last Saturday, I'm down with flu and sore throat.. And I'm still sick until now.. Wtf! I cannot get to enjoy all the cookies which waved at me and lured me to eat them everyday. Plus, I didn't do any shopping this year as you know, I'm due in one month's time so no point buying new clothes now..

Probably is the changes of my current status that makes me lost interest in CNY.. Why? Coz I'm going to give out ang pows instead of collecting them this year.. Boo~ No extra cash.. Somemore, this will be the first year I'm celebrating it with other family aka my husband's family instead of my own. So, a new year, new beginning huh?

I've having difficulty to sleep throughout this week. I slept early everyday but wake up every 2 hours because of nose block. I hate nose block.It makes me hardly can breath and I feel suffocated every time I cannot breath properly.. Like I'm gonna die or something.. Noa a very good way to kick start CNY. I need some nice, hot, flavour, spicy food right now.. I've been having porridge, noodle and bread almost everyday.. Not forgetting water as my only companion as I wasn't allowed to eat anything else unless I've recovered. I miss pizza, subway, curry noodle, teppanyaki, bah kut teh, ramly burger and lots more.. I will have more cravings when I'm sick.. It's always like that..

Pls just let me recover and have a nice CNY.. I didn't want to ended up seeing other people eating all the cookies and I can have none of that.. In that case, you better kill me lo.. Promise? PLS..

I'm free from exam.. *hopefully*

I just finished my last paper on the 6th of January 2012! I was having pretty mixed feelings at that time because I wanted the exam to end but at the same time it also means my friends and I are leaving the college as well.. But, the ending of college life doesn't mean the ending of our friendship right? We can still come out and hang out together.. LOL..

My buddies are currently enjoying their trips in Ipoh as graduation trip.. Too bad, I cannot join as I'm already 8 months pregnant and it will be safer to stay back.. Speaking about pregnancy, I can't believe time passes so fast.. In a glimpse of eyes, I'm 8 month pregnant and my baby is on her way to see the world.. In one and a half month's time.. OMG!! Since it is my first pregnancy, there are lots of things that I don't know. Lucky me, I'm always surrounded by good and loving people.. I've got so many people who teaches me what to do and how to take care of my health in order for my baby to be healthy as well..

Other that than, I also have a bunch of buddies who always take care of me whenever we went to college or malls... Blissful as it is, I believe my baby will be pampered by a lot of people.. LOL.. Now, I can't wait to see my baby so I have to prepared myself for the delivery.. Erm, maybe after CNY..

Yes, CNY is approaching and this year it will be different because I'm giving out ang pows instead of taking them.. Weird feelings huh? *laughs* New year, new life experience.. And this year's CNY will be totally different from the previous one as daddy is not around to celebrate it with us. But, he will always remembered in our hearts..

Tick tock tick tock.... Time is ticking and I shall enjoy my remaining one and a half month before getting busy again..

I miss my buddies already.. :(

The last day of the year

It's the time of the year again.. New Year's Eve..

This year particularly, I feel nothing about New Year's Eve.. Maybe I'm old and lost the passion to party on New Year's Eve..LOL.. But the main reason is I'm having a baby right now so it's not a right time to party and go places that is super crowded. And another reason is my best friend's father passed away due to cancer. I cannot attend his funeral because I'm pregnant. I feel extremely bad because I know this is the hardest time to go through as I just go through it 2 months ago. Life...is always unpredictable. The time when we thought it will be better, it becomes the worse..

I attended my cousin's wedding (bride side) yesterday and my grandma suddenly asked my aunt why my dad didn't go and fetch her.. When I heard that, my heart shattered.. Sometimes she remembers and sometimes she don't. Sad to hear that..

Anyway, I hope that 2012 will be a better year for me, my family and also my friends.. I will definitely miss my friends a lot..

Don't mess with me

I finally went home last weekend.. I went home for a while only last 2 weekends because I got things to do. It was a very nice feeling being home again but yeah, shits happened. I just don't understand why you all like to bully my mum and still thinks that you are right. Sorry, I cannot tolerate with this because I've lost my dad and the only thing I can do now is to protect my mum. No matter what happens, I will have my mum's back. So, don't play with fire as I'm not a very good person for you all to deal with.

Just one weekends makes me realized that I always deals with shitty people.. Shitty peoples as in people with shitty attitude. Yeah, I've met a lot of people like this. So, when exactly do they leave me in peace? People that I always thought I can count on and trust will ended up becomes the ones that hurts me the most. So, do I still value friendship? Yes, very very much as I still have a bunch of best friends that have my back. As for family, we still have a strong family bond with each other and I can always go back to them just like how I always go back to daddy last time.

I talked to my sister last weekend and realized that my siblings and I are facing difficulties accepting the facts that dad is gone. The pillar of my family suddenly left and we are so lost because he is the one settling everything for us everytime we face problems. I know time will heal but the emptiness is there. Maybe after my baby is born, it will fills my heart a little.

I will not tolerate with these kind of people anymore as in friends or anyone else. Maybe you can say that I'm very cruel but do bear in mind that things that you all did to me is many times more cruel. If I can take it like a man, why can't you? Just stop feeling sorry for me because I don't need it anymore. I can still survive very well because I have other people that appreciate me as who I am.

One month anniversary

Exactly one month ago, I GOT MARRIED.. I know I'm late to announce this but I got too many things to handle at one time. If you read my previous post, you will figure it out..

Anyway, I'm thankful and happy that my friends and family was here that day to celebrate my big day. Biggest regret will definitely the absence of my daddy but I know he is there, in our heart. My wedding did not have games and all but my friends makes it happy and memorable for me. Thanks ji muis! I didn't got married from my house due to daddy's death so i went and rent a room in Premier Hotel. It was tiring but I had lots of fun. Yeah, emotion ups and downs in one week is freaking tired. I guess my family is tired too but they are all there to witness my important day.

After one month, I still cannot believe that I'm married. Basically, I still live like before, studying and went home as usual. LOL. Pictures are all in facebook which includes my wedding pictures as well.

I got to know some nice people from the bridal shop that I went. One will be the girl that serve me, Suet and also the make up artist, Penny. They were really helpful and caring.. I feel blessed.. Other than that, throughout the whole process of preparation, my hubby did most of the work while me, giving opinion. Thank you, lou gong for everything. Muackss.

My husband's family

His heng tai!

Vs my ji muis

my family

Lastly, us..

Happy one month anniversary..