Where is my CNY mood?

Morning peoples!

CNY is just around the corner and I definitely not feeling it yet. Yes, it is getting worse each year because I don't have the excitement to celebrate it. Mainly because I've grown up? Or just the environment changed? Or just the fact that I had a painful lost in December last year? You may have guessed it. It's my pet dog, Velvet. People may think, it is just a dog.. Why feel so sad and bothered? You can always buy a new one.

NO!! It isn't the same, ok. It is my dog and it's been in the family for 10 years. He grow up on my family and also learns from us. He is different. No other dog can replace him. Really.. I guess you must have a pet yourself so that you will understand how it feels to lost it. This year is definitely different without him. Arghh.. Enough of the emo thingie.

My brother will not be back for CNY.. He will only come back after CNY with his wife aka my sister in law. I think I've mentioned it before right? Then we will all be busy with his wedding which took place in May. Oh ya, did I mentioned? I will be going to China with my parent in March.. to meet the in law family. Lolz. I guess I need some time away from Malaysia. I feel so suffocated with things and problems. It is just things that I should deal with but sometimes I'm just plain tired. Sigh.. Life life life.. Just have to deal with it.

The boyf came the last 2 days to accompany me. I miss him so much that I keep on bug him to come.. Hahahaha.. He spent the full 2 days with me and I'm loving it. Too bad, he still have things to do today which also mean he will only be here on CNY.. The evil him did something hilarious yesterday. I sleeps in the upper part of double-decker bed so people don't usually go or sleeps on my bed because it's troublesome. I went into my room wanted to asked him to go for dinner. But he is nowhere to be seen. Then, I realized, something is weird about my bed. Yeah, he hide there. Covering himself with my blanket and also taking the bolster to block himself. I went and open the blanket and he burst into laughter. He is so cute, aint he? Hahaha.. He did it for the second time in my study room. I had a mattress lying against the cupboard and there is some space between the mattress and the door. Mind you, my door is open. I went into the room and asked my sis where is him? My sis casually said he went downstairs and burst into laughter. I smell something fishy going on and my instinct asked me to turn around. Ta-da.. There he is, hiding behind the mattress.. I really don't know whether to be angry or laugh at his action. But his action definitely melts my heart. When he is here, I didn't use my laptop at all. I've had him to accompany and do crazy stuffs to make me laugh then why should I need a laptop for? Oh, I miss him now.. Very very much.. Another reason for me to be anticipating for CNY..

First day in exam..

Now, I'm watching Korean drama and totally don't have the mood to study because I feel so exhausted. I finished my 1st paper which is Statistic feeling exhausted and couldn't put in anything else into my brain. I decided to rest tonight and study tomorrow. Not that English is not important but I was too tired to study.. Statistic really takes up most of my brain juice today. I went into the exam hall feeling extremely nervous because I'm so worried that I don't know how to do. In the end, I don't have enough time to finish all the question. Blame it all on the graph paper because the box is so small and very hard to calculate. Anyway, what is done is done.. Let's just pray that I can pass this paper.. *keep my finger crossed*

I miss home!! I want to go home and enjoy my holiday with my family. CNY is approaching and I will love to spend it with my love ones. I miss Velvet out of sudden. My 2011 CNY will not be the same anymore. There will be no more hugging Velvet because he is too scared of fireworks. And also decorating his lovely home. I will definitely feel the loss during CNY.

Because of exam, I didn't meet my lovely boyf for so many days already. I miss him so much.. I miss having him with me. I miss all the moments spend with him. He is been going through tough times at this moment because of work. I'm not there for him but I will give him moral support of course. I hope he will go through this soon enough and gained back himself.

I love you, lao gong!! Muackss..

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone!!

You must be wondering how I spent my New Year Eve, right? Well well well... I spent it at home talking on the phone with the boyf.. Hahahahah.. Lame, I know.. Since it falls on a Friday so I thought why not come home.. I didn't want to squeeze with people outside as I'm not feeling that well recently.. I scared I might faint anytime. Lolz. For the first time since Diploma, B5 did not celebrate New Year together.. But I know our hearts are together for sure..

Brand new year, brand new thinking.. I've learned to accept the fact that Velvet is gone for good. But the memories with him will always be with me.. Never change..

I love you Velvet!!

As for now, I will not have any pet because losing it or watching it die breaks me into pieces.. Maybe, in the future I will get a pet but definitely not now.. My boyf asked me to buy tortoise as a pet because they can definitely live longer.. I wonder.. Hahaha..

I shall leave the past behind and look forward.. My final's is approaching and I have yet start studying.. That is so normal for a last minute person like me.. However, I hope I can change this very bad habit this year.. I should plan my works accordingly.. And also to blog more..

So, I guess it's time to study.. Bye everyone.. Enjoy your New Year!

How do I live without you?

It't the last day of 2010. Seriously, 2010 has not been good to me. Finally graduated from Diploma and continued my Advanced Diploma. I realized that Advance is so much difficult and need more effort. But good things is I get a bunch of new friends. And totally glad because that happened. Other than that will be seeing my friends flies oversea to further their study. Yes, I'm talking about you, Woon and Tian Long.. I miss all the times we spent together. Without the both of you, there is less joy and laughter.. Looking forward for your return.. As for Hee Boon, I'm sorry because we didn't spend more time together and I will try to make it for you in 2011.. Pinkie darling, how could I forget you.. I will definitely meet you up after my exam.. Ah, friends do come and go.. You will have new one in your life but you will also have someone who leave your life. That's life.

As for relationship, well it is consider ok despite we have arguments over the year. But that is consider normal for a couple right? Boyf been working very hard this year and managed to fulfill his target for this year which I'm truly proud of him. Looking back, it's been 2 and a half year we've together and seriously, I never thought I will be in a relationship for this long.. Lolz. But the truth proves to me that I can.. I really hope next year will be a better year for both of us. Love you, lao gong..

Finally, family.. I guess 2010 is really not a good year.. Brother been coming home lesses than previous years and then daddy is sick.. Now, even my lovely Velvet is missing. But but I guess 2011 will definitely be better as Ko will get marry next year.. If I ever have a wishlist, it will be to have my Velvet back. Then, a very joyful and prosperous year for my friends and family.. I learned that this is the most important things in life rather than wanted to buy this and that.. Of course, I still have something that I wanted which is my G12.. Wakakakaka..

Yesterday, I was so moody and gloomy because I dreamed of Velvet. The dream is like this, I walked into my house and saw my Velvet. I asked daddy, Dad, Velvet is back!! I feel so so so happy and went to hug him.. When I was about to ask daddy how did he come back, I was awake. It hits me real hard because it is just a dream. I almost cried because it is just like giving me hope and then taking it away. So, I started my day feeling sad. I rarely talk to my friends in class and when they asked what is wrong, I couldn't tell because I feel like crying.. I just don't understand why, why do you want to take other people's dog? I will not use the word steal because they might be kind to save my Velvet from being ran over by cars. But then, don't you think their family will be extremely worry about him? Whenever I talk about Velvet, I feel like crying.. I guess I just have to accept the facts now.. It's been one week already.. I need more time.. and it will be best if I could turn back time..

Sad Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!

But I'm not in Christmas mood. As you see above, it is my Velvet. I got the bad news today that he is missing. Right now he is still missing. I wonder where is him now.

Velvet, where are you? Can you come back now? We all miss you back home. It is so quiet in the house without you.

I cursed the people who take him away. People who take him away is a fucking thief. I cursed you go to hell if you don't return my Velvet.

Oh My God! My Dog is Soo FAT!!

Hello~~ I weight my doggie, Velvet a moment ago and gosh, he weight almost 7KG.. *fainted* I never thought he will be that fat.. Anyway, just some random facts..




















This is the Egypt presentation pictures that I sum it up.. The aftermath of this presentation is extremely lack of sleep but worth it because Ms Kik is soooo impressed.. The memories that keep us all together.. No pictures of me being wrapped though.. Too bad..

This moment, I wanted to watch New Moon so badly.. I just have to wait until next week.. Seriously, I need to study for my midterm already.. I have 3 midterms next week and of coz some assignments to hand in.. Newscast, I not yet finish writing it. Matilah saya~~

Yesterday, we did a small celebration for my granny as last Thursday is her birthday. No pictures because no cake.. The weather is so hot that I keep sweating.. Imagine, having steamboat in such a hot weather.. Totally dehydrated.

I WANT and NEED to shop for bags so badly. My bag shopping syndrome is here... I really need to buy a bag.. Such a bad shopping habit.. Coz I ended up buying everything else but bag.. When will I get a nice and suitable bag?

On the other hand, I had so much fun last week.. Minus the extreme lack of sleep.. Been staying over at Wan Huey's for 2 days and going out everyday.. Muahahaha.. Spending money like nobody's business.. It's been so long since I splurge like this... Nope, I'm not buying any branded stuff..Purely on entertainment.. That's all..

Kelvin's farewell..

I just came back from Kelvin's farewell.. Hehe.. I very much enjoyed my high school friend's company. It's so fun.. Of coz, we had lots of delicious dessert.. Me likey! He made 3 cakes that is chocolate mousse cake, new york cheese cake and blueberry cheese cake.. I didn't eat the blueberry cheese cake but it look nice.. I specially likie one of his dessert which i don't know what is it.. It's like a piece of very thin biscuit wih fruits on top. Love it very much..I wish to have Kelvin to cook for me everyday.. Hahahahaha.. He is leaving to US next week. Gotta miss him.. I'm lost when I'm on my way to Hee Boon's house.. I'm really not familiar with Kampung Jawa's road.. Hehe.. Ended up, Ren Quan and Hee Boon have to come to rescue.. Actually, I turned in earlier.. Hehe.. The road there very dark.. Scary~~ I park my car in Hee Boon's house and then follow Ren Quan's car.. Hehe.. All the lost thing will happen because my boy ffk me.. But then I forgive him because he got work to do.. I'm gonna upload pictures in facebook..

Today, Velvet seemed to be sick coz he basically vomitted 5 times.. I don't know what is wrong with him.. Mt task for the day is to clean all his vomit.. Hahahaha.. Maybe he misses daddy and mummy.. Poor Velvet..

Luck or fate?

Neither.. Lolz.. I just realized that I'm having fate with construction work this year.. Why said so? My very 1st semester break falls on February this year which lasted for a month. Half of my holiday is contributed to my bathroom's renovation. Yeah.. There goes my holiday, down the drain. Right now, I was having holiday too and to my not much surprise, my neighbor is having a renovation too.. Haha.. My holiday is drowned down in the sea now... Yes, since my holiday started, I was waken up by the noise of the construction almost every morning, even Sunday.. I myslef couldn't stand the noise of the machines going thru the wall, it is killing me.. Complained to daddy, ignored totally by him because he claims that it is better they renovate than leaving it.. Right, because that house is empty since I-Forgot-How-Long.. I used to direct people to my house by saying, you saw the empty, half-renovated house? Yes, mine was just right beside it.. Fast and easy.. Lolz.. I guess no more using that next time.. Both of my holidays was ruined, what about next one? *finger crossed*

Weather is such a bitch nowaday because it is f*cking hot.. My allergy is back due to the extreme hot weather.. How? Sigh.. Nothing I can do...

I'm just done feeding my Velvet darling.. FYI, Velevt is ill recently, minor ear infection.. It is very very hard to make him eat the medicine. 1st time, we tried with mixing the medicine with the dog food, he refuse to eat the food. We took out and melt the medicine with hot water.. 2 people have to hold him while 1 pour the medicine into his mouth. Phew.. What a hard work... 2 days later, my sister came up with an idea.. We make the pills into powder and then put it on the top of my doggie's full time favourite, BREAD.. Yea, my cute doggie likes bread ALOT since birth. And and that cute lil doggie actually fall for that. He refuse to ate it at first but then still finished it up simply because he cannot resist his favourite.. Lolz.. Ever since that day, we've been feeding him medicine with bread... What an extra work to do just to feed him medicine.. Spoiled brat.. These few days, he even refuse to eat his dog food, I guess he knew that he had to eat his medicine right after food so he skipped it. We had to feed him.. See how much we pamper him.. We even bring him into our room for air-con because the weather is too hot... But, he cannot stand long, will always wanted to go out.. Weird just like my brother..

Finally, a peace of mind.. I guess for a while so I have to appreciate this moments hell alot..
*Continue playing my spot the difference*

A trip to the vet..

Today, I brought Velvet to the vet because he's been screaming lately when he scratches his left ear. Yesterday, same thing happened. My brother checked on his ear and realised that he might having an infection. So we decided to bring him to the vet today. As usual, he will follow us when we going out to try his luck whether or not we will bring him along.. Normally we wouldn't.. I asked him to follow my brother because I need to lock the door.. He looked at me curiously. Then I carry him and said "come we go kai kai'.. He is so happy and excited but little that he know that we are bringing him to the vet. Haha.. When we reached the clinic, the docotr helped him to clean his ear and he screams like mad when he is cleaning the left ear. When I heard him screams, my hearts turns sour.. Mybaby... But then its for his good also.. Overall it costs us about RM60..
Weather is extremely hot nowadays.. I sweats most of the time and bath numerous times.. God.. Why is it so so so hot?