MIA

Can you believe it? My last post is on 21st of May.. Oh how time flies.. I'm so tied up with assignments and also family matter. After my brother's wedding, I have to readjust my life to fit into my tight schedule. Not really tight actually but the gap in between classes is killing me.

4 out of 5 days, I have 8am class.. 4 out of 5 days, my classes have gaps of 5 hours in between. 2 out of 5 days, I have class until 8pm.. How nice my schedule is right? And my group got canceled twice for 6pm class almost very last minute.. Yeah, that is how suck my schedule is. And I have lots of assignment requires shooting and writing script this semester. Documentary, news gathering, creative programs, and etc. I have one script due next week and I still don't have time to write it.

My cheque for PC Fair is just release and I have to go back to the office to collect it. Damm. Last time, they will bank in for me. When I ask them do they need the shirt back and they said no. Now, they want me to send back the shirt before they release the salary. Wtf.. So maQfan.. Ish.. I have to waste my time to go to Damansara again. Geram..

As for the boyf and I, we are happy although we spend less time together. He will take the initiative to accompany me every Wednesday. Love him.. :) In few months' time, we will be together for 3 years already. I'm so excited about it..

Day 3 of exam.

Day 3 of exam.. I realized that I've stressing out for exam this semester. For the past exams, I'm ready for exam most of the time and not as stress out as this time. Yes, I studied and memorized but then I'm so scared that my mind will go blank in the exam hall. I'm so nervous while waiting outside the exam hall until I cough non-stop.. By the way, I've not been sleeping well yesterday night because I not yet memorized everything. I wake up at 3am to continue my studies. Then went out with ma buddies to study then to college.

Thank god, questions is straightforward. Thanks, Ms Theresa.. I managed to answer all of the questions.. However, my stomach feelings unwell since morning. At first, I thought it is me being nervous but the actual fact was, PERIOD... Yeah, came at the wrong timing. I'm having stomach cramp and my waist also pain the whole afternoon.. Even at this moment when I'm typing this. Arghh.. I still got 2 papers. Can you just let me finish all my papers 1st?

I guess the answer is NO coz you are here already.. I have to deal with you anyway. Hopefully, you are being good after resting for a day.. Thank you for your cooperation.

But the pros of having period? More attention from the bf because he come and find me plus buys me gummy bears.. Because I want to drink pearl milk tea but he doesn't allow. So he substitute it with gummy bears. Only he knows me the best. Love him max! When I miss him, I will eat it.. Hahahahaha.. And hopefully it will ease my cramp..

What does rainbow means to you

When you see rainbow, what do you think about? A glimpse of hope in dark? I don't know. My feelings for the past few days is like seeing rainbows. Hoping and hoping for something. However, today my hope was fully destroyed by my programme supervisor. I fall from heaven to hell.

About a month ago, she asked us to prepare our resume for internship. We were all rushing for it. After all the resume is sent, all we can do is wait. Finally, last week, 4 of my course mates received calls to go for interview. I still putting hope and waited patiently. I look at my phone every few seconds just in case my calls got missed. Today, my programme supervisor came and give us a brief talk about internship and this is when my hope is gone. She told us not many of us are qualified for internship. And I turned out to be oner of the lucky one that will stay in college next semester. My heart broke into pieces when I heard of that and definitely disappointed. I wonder, what is the use of getting a merit in diploma and keep your record nice and presentable? I'm still not qualified for internship. If from the beginning she told us that we are not qualified, I'm fine with it. But after all the hassle of preparing the resume and spending money on passport size pictures only she informed us about it. I was pissed and disappointed at the same time. I cannot even think straight at that moment. I becomes so moody and totally lost interest in lecture. I envy those who gets to go for internship. But it is a fact now and nothing I can do to change it.

I'm much more better than just now. At least, I controlled my own emotions already.. But that doesn't mean I don't get angry with the person that caused me not qualified for internship. Totally remember the 'favour' from him. Thanks a lot and I will repay if I have a chance.

Now, everything is black for me and I need my rainbow back~

Crazy timetable

My schedule is finally out but I'm not happy with it. 4 days of 8am class plus 2 days of 5 hours straight of class for 1 particular subject. How suck can that be? Most of my lecture and tutorial class is in Q block. Oh my god, that is really really far.. Matilah saya.. When assignments start, I'm dead for sure.

I can't believe I still have to attend English this semester. So, I attended English today and it is boring.. 1st, lecturer is a Sue Soh num 2 minus the overacting part. 2nd,she discuss about meetings and only meetings. I almost fell asleep in the class. But she is kind of unique tho because if someone communicate using language other than English,in the following week, that particular person have to sing a song in the class. I think assignments for this semester is kinda heavy too as they carries lots of marks.. Hopefully I can survive thru semester 2..

Yesterday, I worked in Harvery Norman in Midvalley but under Papago lo.. It's an easy job as I only need to serve the customers. Plus it's a Tuesday so there are not many customers. Hehehe.. In fact, I've watch several movies there such as Ong Bak 3, Shanghai Noon, Madagascar 2 and Shaolin Soccer.. There are one stool there and the staffs there are so friendly to let me rest.. I've met few new friends and they are so kind to have lunch with me.. *happy* Due to the wrong shoes, my feet is full with blister and it hurts badly. New semester starts already so hopefully I will still have time for some part time jobs coz I wants to spend my own money.. I just feel that I should reduce some of my daddy's burden because my younger brother is going to enter college soon. Right now, I pray for a good results and also for my brother so that he can really study hard and get good grades..

Facebook is such a pain in the ass!!

Facebook is such a pain in the ass today.. I wanted to harvest my plant but just couldn't log in. When I finally get to log in, my plant expired.. @!$#@$%&^%&*&... Everything is just not right.. My 1st day of menstrual equals to bad cramp day.. But at least I'm happy... Certain ppl will know why.. lolz.. Facebook is getting worse I think and soon, it will turn into Friendster No.2... Whatever.. I deleted people that I don't know because no point adding people you don't know,right?

Weather is hot like usual.. I guess tomorrow will be better as I'm going to Genting for a 2days 1 night trip.. And I'm gonna go casino.. I'm legal but got no chance to go.. So, casino here I come.. My Penang trip is canceled but no worries, we will make it up next semester break.. Right, Leong Wan Huey? I was kinda disappointed but then my boy said he will bring me there.. I will wait.. I wonder when is the next time he will have such a long break? College gonna start next week and reunited with my B-gang baby.. I can't wait to hang out with them again.. I miss them so much.. I miss all the crazy sing k, shopping, food hunt and movie marathon.. The 1st week of college means our waste money week.. Lolz.. It's a tradition that we went crazy the whole week and then back to study mode the following week.. We will not break the tradition, baby.. Agree?

My brother is finally back tonight with surprise.. Can't wait!! *laughs* I miss my brother and scared at the same time.. Results is coming out and he will be in Malaysia when the result came out.. I'm scared that I might screwed up.. *pray hard*

Oh, and not forgetting to date our lovely Ms Loh.. We couldn't go after exam so we will made it up in the 1st week..

English paper!

I screwed up my English paper today.. I couldn't come up with any idea for the essay!!! Arghh!! I'm so angry of myself!! The comprehension part is so so tough.. That was the 1st English paper I took in my diploma so far.. Ish ish!! Think from the bright side and study for my other paper!!

I must not disappoint Miss Loh....
I must score!!

I don't know what to say!

Things has been different lately.. Ever since my sis changed her job, she becomes an outgoing person.. Which at some point, I still couldn't get used to it but I cannot be bother either. Looking at her reflects at my non-social life right now.. Gosh, when was the last time I went to GreenBox this sem? I don't remember. Every week also assignment and more assignments. I might look at myself thru my sister right now. But one thing different is she is at home and I'm in KL which means I have more freedom than her. It is good to change but just she change too slow. But heck, it's better than non right?

I'm in the mid of getting sick or not! I had this very bitter tea which my daddy forced me to drink yesterday. Today, I feel slightly better but still with mild headache. Ish.. I receive an email from my live drama group mate said she wanted to change the story.. Our presentation is in less than a week's time.. I don't know what comment should I give her. I'm kinda tired to argue with almost anything..

Yesterday was a bad day for me.. I went to college not feeling well.. And then we had our class presentation which Louis is the script writer.. I didn't blame him for the wrong format because I know he did the script til late at night. I look at the script and then change a little here and there. We went and print the script out. Ms Loh was so kind and said if we got no confident then we just hand in the script and no need to present. But of coz, we wanted to present. Louis found some sound effect and then the file got corrupted because it was infected by virus.. Great! There goes all the sound effect. In the end, we manage to find some music and do our manual sound effect and of coz with Justin's help.. At least we made an effort to present right? Ms Loh said he kinda like our storyline and that made my day a little. Andrew printed the English assignment and he didn't realized that their id number missing.. And he printed it without page numbering.. I wonder what is wrong. The very pissed and sick me change it and plan to reprint.. I went to TBR after class with Alicia. The naive me thought it was just the cover page in the file but then there were actually the whole assignments and I printed it all out.. Fuck!! I was damm pissed when I saw that. Wasted my 7 bucks.. Fine! I went and buy chicken rice and then when I was carrying the soup, it spilled.. Right on my fingers.. Note: it's HOT SOUP!!! How bad my day will be? We went back for English class and I was damm moody already. After English, we went to V Block to book our audio lab. We couldn't find Ms Loh..THank god Louis spotted her in the car park and he called me.. I was like a mad person running to the car park.. Evrything is done by then and I went back to hostel.. Mild fever I had.. It was a very bad day!!

And today, I got a GOOD news.. My groupmate wish to change the story for Live drama where the presentation is less than a week.. I seriously got no comment about that.. I'm tired and sick. Let it be! and GOOD LUCK to ME!

From left to right and right to left

Ok, I didn't manage to post up things that I wrote in the morning due to sudden Internet down. Well, I basically forgot what I wrote so here is a brand new post.. I attended morning class (freaking 8am, ok).. It's a big deal for me because I was late for the class.. I was late for 10 minutes and dang~~ I was the first to arrive still.. What a punctual class mates that I got!! Lolz.. Anyway, I survive thru the boring English class.. Derek was sick and couldn't attend but he m to come for recording make an effort to come for recording later.. Louis on the other hand feel a bot sick because he sleep too late yesterday.. I got few hours to kill before recording time.. I went to Old Town in Sri Rampai with Alicia. We had meehoon for breakfast and my tummy is not feeling well the whole day.. We sit there until almost 2pm.. Of coz, Michael (Alicia's bf) came too.. I am the lamp post.. OMG!!! I guai guai watch my gossip girl lo coz I got nothing to do. I don't have the English with me so I cannot ammend anything.. I enjoyed my Gossip Girl and really hope that I download season 3 as soon as possible. It is released already according to Derek.. Yea, so basically I'm having tummy discomfort the whole day. We finally finished recording around 4 something. We went to McD to finish up all our assignments. Poor thing Derek can only watch us eat and he cannot do anything. Anyway, we plan to have dinner together at night which he have to cancel because he is so sick.. We can have dinner next time, better take care 1st. So dinner canceled and we all went back. I showered and pack my dinner.. Watching the final episode of Gossip Girl and dang~~ I'm having toothache.. Damm irritating!!! Lost all my mood but I manage to finish my Gossip Girl too.. I love CHUCK BASS to bits.. He is so damm cute!! With his cool and low tone voices, OMG.. He makes me melts.. Lolz. Anyway, just need to take care of myself as well because I've been sleeping late and drink less water.. That's all for now.. Ta~da

Kill me!!!!!

Somebody call 911!!!

My drama assignment is killing me.. I wan to die!!!!!

I don't know how to do..

No one can help me and no one for me to consult!!!

How How HOW????

A little bit of myself!

It's Wednesday and I had only one class which falls on 6pm-8pm.. Suck right? My 'dear' Ms Chan canceled all her class this week. I still haven't get my coursework outline; how am I supposed to start my assignment? It's week 5 and I haven't done a single shit. I'm so under stress!!!!

Plus plus my boy's birthday is in approximately 2 weeks time.. Lagi stress!! I don't know what to buy for him yet..

I'm like having one class per day this week.. Gosh!! What is wrong? Cancellation happens and then replacement next.. Hated lecturer/tutor so much..

Whee~~~ Transformer tonight!! Can't wait coz it's been so long since I watch movie with my boy.. Heart him so much!

Saya punya Gang, bila mahu keluar sama-sama?

2nd week of college

It's been so long since I last updated my blog. 5 days? I'm now sitting in my college's canteen typing this. 2nd week is tough for me as my class is either canceled or stuck in between. It's so frustrating and I cannot even went out with my friends.. For my assignments, I guess I have to changed member.. Lolz.. Unfortunately, I have to be in the same group with someone in Drama assignment.. Just bear with it..
Damm, my Restaurant City is not working.. Hate it.. I miss the Internet and of coz my home.. The weather here is so hot that I have to shower every few hours.. Sigh.. It's been 4 days since I last saw my boy.. I miss him... But I know he is busy working so I shouldn't make any fuss..

And not forgetting, I'm sick since Monday.. I'm having sore throat and flu and eventually lost my voice.. Until today, I've finally gained back my voice but still with little bit of sore throat.. My sickness is been on and off.. Consider I'm not fully recovered.. Gosh.. But I guess tomorrow will be better..

Gotta go now, Louis went home d so I'm alone.. Better get going.. Toddles.

Conned to college..

I still remembered that day, they told me that English class in on so I dragged myself from the bed and get my ass to the college.. But turns out, ALL LANGUAGE AND NATION BUILDING AND UNITY UNITS STARTS AT WEEK 2 EXCEPT HUBUNGAN ETNIK AND TAMADUN ISLAM.... Great.. No class today until 2pm.. I really feel like killing people because I had a very hard time to wake up.. It's torturing for someone who sleeps until very late for the past 1 month..

I didn't go back right away because I need to check for my results. I''m now blogging in the Canteen with bunch of juniors around.. Gosh, no leng chai again.. It is indeed a boring college life.. My boy boy gave me a call just now to wake me up or should I said to wake him up? Lolz.. Coz he sounds like he sleep talking.. We chatted for a while and he asked, do you get used to being alone in hostel? I said, sooner or later, I will get used to it. Then, he said, I'm scared that when you get used to it, you will not need me anymore... I laugh and said, I won't silly and persuade him to ready for work.. He is adorable, ain't he? I love him so much.. Hehe..

Actually, I do miss him very much.. Fromm seeing each other everyday until once a week.. It is hard to tolerate.. Bu I also don't want him to be too tired to come over to meet me after work and I want to be independent again..

I want to sleep so badly.. Result, faster release.. It's so hot here..

Updated: Results is finally out and I got a satisfying results.. My effort pays.. Lolz.. I can go back and sleep d.. Hahaha..

cramp Cramp CRAMP!!!!

Cramp is something I hardly can tolerate with.. It is unbearable, for girls they will understand and guys can just forget it. They will NEVER understand even in a million years.. So, as usual, the sweet bf gave me a morning call and of coz pamper me with sweet words which I likey, once a while (who doesn't like sweet words, right? He asked me to rest and too bad he cannot be here.. Well, a good baby like me listens and nods and still complaining about the cramp.. Haha.. Additional to the cramp, I get a whole morning of noises from construction next door. I was so reluctant to wake up as I'm having cramp but the noises getting louder and louder.. Sigh.. When I'm healthy, they stop working.. When I need more sleep, they start to work again.. World is so unfair.. If my 3rd time holiday happens to have another 'fate'with construction, I will stay in KL and refuse to come back.. Construction noise another thing that I cannot bear with..

Samantha texted me yesterday to let me know the good news..She is moving in with me again.. LOlz.. I don't have to go thru the whole knowing new roommates all over again.. We are comfortable with each other and not having any problems living together.. Rin also coming back for Advance, double yay.. I finally have my 2 hostel mates back.. Louis baby moved out and left me alone in hostel.. Yes, not having the whole room by myself anymore.. But it is fun to have roomie back tho. Welcome back Samantha..

Just now, I checked my mail box and my Cousin 1 send email to Cousin 2. He said, Let's just forget about unhappy things that happened. He knows that we just wanted to help his father to send message to him. He will call his mum every month to keep her updated so nothing to worry..'

Since Cousin 1 said that, everything is over now and nothing to worry about anymore.. No comments...

Oh, I just added Shu Yoke( my high school friend) yesterday. I always thought she is in my list.. When I search only to found out that she is actually not, oops.. I didn't really know what happened but I guess her dad passed away. I feel so sorry for her..

Losing a family member is an undescribable feeling. I last had this feelings is when I was 10 years old (my grandfather passed away).. We weren't close because my grandfather wak kinda fierce.. But deep inside, I always knew that he loves all of us. It's a sudden death and I hardly can accept it. Years after years the memories begin to fade away.. My grandfather didn't like taking pictures so we don't have a collection of it. So, now I like to take lots of pictures of my dear grandmother.. To keep it and to refresh my memories.

Luck or fate?

Neither.. Lolz.. I just realized that I'm having fate with construction work this year.. Why said so? My very 1st semester break falls on February this year which lasted for a month. Half of my holiday is contributed to my bathroom's renovation. Yeah.. There goes my holiday, down the drain. Right now, I was having holiday too and to my not much surprise, my neighbor is having a renovation too.. Haha.. My holiday is drowned down in the sea now... Yes, since my holiday started, I was waken up by the noise of the construction almost every morning, even Sunday.. I myslef couldn't stand the noise of the machines going thru the wall, it is killing me.. Complained to daddy, ignored totally by him because he claims that it is better they renovate than leaving it.. Right, because that house is empty since I-Forgot-How-Long.. I used to direct people to my house by saying, you saw the empty, half-renovated house? Yes, mine was just right beside it.. Fast and easy.. Lolz.. I guess no more using that next time.. Both of my holidays was ruined, what about next one? *finger crossed*

Weather is such a bitch nowaday because it is f*cking hot.. My allergy is back due to the extreme hot weather.. How? Sigh.. Nothing I can do...

I'm just done feeding my Velvet darling.. FYI, Velevt is ill recently, minor ear infection.. It is very very hard to make him eat the medicine. 1st time, we tried with mixing the medicine with the dog food, he refuse to eat the food. We took out and melt the medicine with hot water.. 2 people have to hold him while 1 pour the medicine into his mouth. Phew.. What a hard work... 2 days later, my sister came up with an idea.. We make the pills into powder and then put it on the top of my doggie's full time favourite, BREAD.. Yea, my cute doggie likes bread ALOT since birth. And and that cute lil doggie actually fall for that. He refuse to ate it at first but then still finished it up simply because he cannot resist his favourite.. Lolz.. Ever since that day, we've been feeding him medicine with bread... What an extra work to do just to feed him medicine.. Spoiled brat.. These few days, he even refuse to eat his dog food, I guess he knew that he had to eat his medicine right after food so he skipped it. We had to feed him.. See how much we pamper him.. We even bring him into our room for air-con because the weather is too hot... But, he cannot stand long, will always wanted to go out.. Weird just like my brother..

Finally, a peace of mind.. I guess for a while so I have to appreciate this moments hell alot..
*Continue playing my spot the difference*

I'm a fool or what?

Titles tells everything. I feel like a complete fool right now. What is happening actually, I don't know? Why can't they be more kind to me? Always put me in this kind of situation?
Last week, a very very long secondary friend(which I know she dislike me) came and message me on msn.. Last time, we were not in good term because of a guy (which I think we still is in that term ) therefore it is surprising for her to message me. Deep inside I know is about that guy but since she approaches me, I might as well chat with her. She asked a lot of irrelevant question and then that guy.. Finally.. She can just straight to the point actually.. She told me a lot about that guy. Well, maybe I'm not the one who understand him so much.. Skip this part..

Will you bloody tell me the truth if I asked? If not, then what's the point of asking? It's just a waste of time and energy.. For once, will all of you just fucking leave me alone? I'm tired to listen to all the lies..

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah.. Finally it's over...

Finally, my midterm is OVER!!!!! It's not stress but just frustrating because I couldn't study.. Don't care.. Hopefully I really can start study this Saturday *finger crossed*. I went to the class happily for the test but turned out the teacher said it's an individual test.. Shit!! I don't anything at all.. Die die die.. Luckily the tutor give tips and then i copied a little idiom exercise.. hahahha.. So consider ok lo. 2 more weeks from now, i will have another test.. Sigh..

Bad Cramp..

My day started with a bad dream followed by bad cramp.. How bad would it be? I wonder.. Bad cramp is already the worst thing in my life yet I have to rush for my bloody assignment that due next Friday.. Oh.. Shoot me pls, anyone? Yes, the price to pay for procrastinating.. But why oh why must the period comes at the wrong time of the month? Well, they don't bloody care because they will pay you a visit whenever they like.. Bloody hell.. I hate it so much.. But if don't come then I will have to worry... Sigh!