A little bit here and there

Oh my, it's August already. When was the last time I updated this blog? Probably a month ago.. Next month, I'm starting my first ever full time job. Because of this, this month I'm gonna be busy as bee. I have to continue attend class, find my daughter a babysitter (disaster happened), go holiday (against my wish), and etc.. First of all, I started class in June and still going on until next year. So, it'll be a hectic year for me. My baby is supposed to be send to my mother's house when I'm working but things just don't go my way. Mom needs helps on Wednesday and Friday because she needs to work so I asked my neighbour to help. But last minute, the maid has high blood pressure and high cholesterol level so she can't help me.. Okay, health comes first of coz.. I also didn't want anything to happen to her.. So I'm struggling with another babysitter. 

Yesterday, I went to my mother in law's house and decided to give it a second try. She too, cannot because she needs to work.. But she will help me ask around. *fingercrossed* Then, holiday.. As you all know, Raya is just around the corner which also mean that holiday. So, my mother in law decided to go Johor and Singapore to visit her siblings. She asked us to tag along. Not that I didn't want to go but bringing a 6 months old baby (she will be 6 months old by then) to vacation is kind of troublesome. Shower, feeding, sleeping, carrying and etc.. But hubby decided to tag along being a good son to fulfill his mother's wish to bring her granddaughter back.. Hopefully Lil Sammie will be good by that time.. 

Oh, another thing.. I actually plan to stop breastfeeding and I know it needs time so I'm trying very hard to adjust with it.. And, I started to feed Lil Sammie with porridge.. I have to blend it so it will be easier to digest and so far, she is taking it well.. I gave her my Lil Isabelle's formula to try on and she seems okay with it so I guess it is not a problem to start her formula.. I wanted to continue to breastfeed but then working makes it so hard for me so I have to give that up..

Now, Lil Sammie can flip and turn but couldn't crawl yet.. All she can do is turn direction.. Haha.. But she likes to grab EVERYTHING within her reach and put it in her mouth. Oh, imagine the horror.. When I take the things away from her, she cry.. See la, use her crying power to get what she wants but sorry, I will not give you anyway.. But her daddy will.. Bad bad daddy.. She will turned 6 months next week. Ah, time passed so fast.. Just a moment, I'm pregnant with her.. Then gave birth to her and now she is 6 month's old already.. She just likes to play and things that she likes to play is exciting kind.. Haha.. 

Seeing my mother makes me heartache.. She is lack of sleeps and needs do far more lot of things than last time yet some people are not appreciating her efforts. She is not made of iron okay.. She is human with blood and flesh and she will be tired too. To those who ditch your responsibility, we keep quiet doesn't mean we are nice to be bully.. Just wait and see.. 

Me in recent days

Good days!
I've been away for a while, didn't I? I'm just busy dealing with ma daughter.. Other than that, I'm also starting class yesterday.. What? Studying again? Yes! A one year course but it's a part time so I can work at the same time.. =) Lil Sammie has been a little bit kinky recently. She cries a lot when I brought her to new places aka my mum's house.. I guess child's memory is really short term.. She totally forgot that she used to stay there for months.. Haha.. I'm still thinking of how am I supposed to leave her under my mum's care when I went to work.. Will she cry non-stop? I wonder.. So, all I can do right now is to bring her back to mum's place more often..
Studying is pretty bored for me but at least I'm doing something more productive than staying home 24/7.. I'm currently hooked on a new game named Where's My Water? but my phone seems to have problem downloading it.. (I played using my sis phone btw) Maybe it's time for a new phone perhaps? LOL.. I wish but not now..
Things has been slowly turned out good for me and my family.. Grandma has been staying in my mum's house for quite some time now.. She is funny because she often recognized ppl wrongly and you will lost track of who she is referring.. Just last Sunday, we were having dinner (me, granny, bro and sis) I asked granny who is my brother? She cannot come out with a name then my bro casually said that he is my husband. I repeat after him and granny scolded me siow.. Haha.. At least she knows he is not my husband.. And she started to differentiate Lil Sammie and Lil Isabelle..
I whatsapp with my friends yesterday and I miss them so much.. I need more outings with my friends.. Pls come back now so we can hang out together..  =(
I'm very hungry now and hubby is still not back with my lunch. Grumpy!!

I've changed, have I?

I read my previous post and realized that the way I blog is sooooo different than now.. Most of my recent post revolves around my family and mainly my daughter.. Hahaha.. The changes that I did not realized though. But really, all I do now is wake up, do some house chores, play with my daughter, bath her and yada yada yada then sleep.. LOL.. My day is almost the same except for any other day where my hubby will bring us out, I'm back in Klang or went out with my buddies.

Yesterday, I sent my DNDHZ friends that are going to UK. I've lil Sammie and hubby going along. Lil Sammie is like a star because each of them carry her and show their family.. Hahaha.. Some said she look like me and some said she look like hubby. Oh ya, buddy Wan Huey went to vacation with her family so we meet there too.. Airport can be a place of happiness but also a place of sadness.. Happiness is when you went and pick up your loved one from the arrival hall and sadness is when you sen your love one off in departure hall. It is very sad to look at the back of your love one when he/she is leaving. Although they will come back, but it will be in few days, months or years time. So, I have love and hate relationship with airport..

Well, as you all aware, I've graduated and haven't find myself a job. I'm still confused in which field I should work in. So, my life is basically very boring. Not that I'm not happy with my life, just not as happy as b4.. Why, you may ask. Since my daddy's death, every individual in my family changed. As in for me, I've become more grown up and realized of my own responsibility especially after my daughter is born. I was pampered and protected by my family all the time and no matter what happened, I can always go back to my family and then they will settle it for me. Of coz now, my family still supports me but things changed. I realized I have to think and plan everything myself and cannot rely on other people. I cannot act childish anymore. Which is why I'm a boring person now. Hahahaha.. But I'm glad to have hubby by my side. He provide me everything I need now. I know he's been spending much recently.. Way too much. But, he still pamper me with my favourite food whenever we go out. And often help me to babysit lil Sammie. He is a loving hubby to me and loving daddy to lil Sammie.

But still, I'm not used to staying by myself yet.. I miss Klang and my Klang home..

New Home New Life

I officially moved to Puchong last Tuesday with my hubby and lil Sammie. One week here and I'm just starting to get used to living on my own. Yep, I stayed with my family since born.. LOL.. Even after married, I only stayed a month in my in law's place. So, basically, I only start my marriage life now. Staying by myself, cook, clean and etc.. Now, I have a routine that I have to follow everyday. It is kind of boring.. LOL.. I didn't really cook yet because I'm still learning. Husband did the cooking most of the time. PHAIL kao kao. Do I really like this kind of life? Nope, I prefer working and doing something rather than staying home all day. But now, for my daughter's sake, I have to wait. Mainly because she is still small (3 months +) and I didn't want to hire a babysitter. I have no confident in babysitter nowadays. I often hear scary tragedy about how baby is killed in their babysitter's house. So now, I will try to arrange either my mother in law or my mum to take care of her when I work.

Watching lil Sammie growing each day is satisfying. I'm wondering what is the first word that she will say.. Haha.. I'm blessed because people around me loves my daughter, lil Sammie very much. They will shower her with gifts and through their action. Here, I want to thank everyone for loving my daughter so much.. =) Speaking about that, I'm kind of missing my niece now. Few days didn't see her already. I stayed with her since her birth until I moved out. Tak biasa without her right now.. Next time when she go back to China sure miss her kao kao..

Part of my DNDHZ friends is going to UK tmr. I wish them best of luck here and will be here waiting for them to come back. I'm so gonna miss them!!!! Bring me souvenirs pls.. Notice the 'S'? Hahahahaha...

My baby girl

Today marks the 100th day of my dad's death.. Mum did a massive prayers for him and invited most of my relatives to my house because daddy loves having many people around. We even changed daddy's picture in living room into our family photo.

I'm going to give birth to my baby girl anytime now. It merely depends on when she wants to see the world. I'm having mixed feeling right now because I want to see her soon but do not fully prepared for what is going to happened during delivery. LOL. Nine months passed so fast. Right until last month that I felt that I'm having a baby because this is the time when I'm finally free to relax and feel her.. Previously, I still need to attend classes and also write my thesis so I'm kind of busy. Of course I can feel her presence because she constantly kicks me.. =) Since it is the last month of my pregnancy, I constantly feels tired and also hard to sleep. I hardly can find a comfortable position to sleep. Plus, I always wake up in the middle of the night to go to the loo. No choice coz my bladder tends to be full easily. But, I still managed to get few hours of sleep every night. Sometimes, I nap in the afternoon..

Now, I'm done buying my baby's stuff and I find myself loves doing baby shopping. Everything for her feels so nice and cute. I wished to buy everything for her but cannot. Hehe.. In the end, I only get what she needs. I have to go to hospital once a week for regular check ups and the waiting is killing me.. I have to sits there for hours just to wait for the doctor but thank god, hubby is there with me all the time. He did not missed even once. *loves* In the end of my pregnancy, I have to do tons of things such as counting the times my baby kicks in a day, taking care of my diet, regular check ups every week and etc. In one word, pregnancy is not easy. So, pls be good to your mom.. LOL

Baby baby, when did you want to come out?

I'm free from exam.. *hopefully*

I just finished my last paper on the 6th of January 2012! I was having pretty mixed feelings at that time because I wanted the exam to end but at the same time it also means my friends and I are leaving the college as well.. But, the ending of college life doesn't mean the ending of our friendship right? We can still come out and hang out together.. LOL..

My buddies are currently enjoying their trips in Ipoh as graduation trip.. Too bad, I cannot join as I'm already 8 months pregnant and it will be safer to stay back.. Speaking about pregnancy, I can't believe time passes so fast.. In a glimpse of eyes, I'm 8 month pregnant and my baby is on her way to see the world.. In one and a half month's time.. OMG!! Since it is my first pregnancy, there are lots of things that I don't know. Lucky me, I'm always surrounded by good and loving people.. I've got so many people who teaches me what to do and how to take care of my health in order for my baby to be healthy as well..

Other that than, I also have a bunch of buddies who always take care of me whenever we went to college or malls... Blissful as it is, I believe my baby will be pampered by a lot of people.. LOL.. Now, I can't wait to see my baby so I have to prepared myself for the delivery.. Erm, maybe after CNY..

Yes, CNY is approaching and this year it will be different because I'm giving out ang pows instead of taking them.. Weird feelings huh? *laughs* New year, new life experience.. And this year's CNY will be totally different from the previous one as daddy is not around to celebrate it with us. But, he will always remembered in our hearts..

Tick tock tick tock.... Time is ticking and I shall enjoy my remaining one and a half month before getting busy again..

I miss my buddies already.. :(

The last day of the year

It's the time of the year again.. New Year's Eve..

This year particularly, I feel nothing about New Year's Eve.. Maybe I'm old and lost the passion to party on New Year's Eve..LOL.. But the main reason is I'm having a baby right now so it's not a right time to party and go places that is super crowded. And another reason is my best friend's father passed away due to cancer. I cannot attend his funeral because I'm pregnant. I feel extremely bad because I know this is the hardest time to go through as I just go through it 2 months ago. Life...is always unpredictable. The time when we thought it will be better, it becomes the worse..

I attended my cousin's wedding (bride side) yesterday and my grandma suddenly asked my aunt why my dad didn't go and fetch her.. When I heard that, my heart shattered.. Sometimes she remembers and sometimes she don't. Sad to hear that..

Anyway, I hope that 2012 will be a better year for me, my family and also my friends.. I will definitely miss my friends a lot..

One month anniversary

Exactly one month ago, I GOT MARRIED.. I know I'm late to announce this but I got too many things to handle at one time. If you read my previous post, you will figure it out..

Anyway, I'm thankful and happy that my friends and family was here that day to celebrate my big day. Biggest regret will definitely the absence of my daddy but I know he is there, in our heart. My wedding did not have games and all but my friends makes it happy and memorable for me. Thanks ji muis! I didn't got married from my house due to daddy's death so i went and rent a room in Premier Hotel. It was tiring but I had lots of fun. Yeah, emotion ups and downs in one week is freaking tired. I guess my family is tired too but they are all there to witness my important day.

After one month, I still cannot believe that I'm married. Basically, I still live like before, studying and went home as usual. LOL. Pictures are all in facebook which includes my wedding pictures as well.

I got to know some nice people from the bridal shop that I went. One will be the girl that serve me, Suet and also the make up artist, Penny. They were really helpful and caring.. I feel blessed.. Other than that, throughout the whole process of preparation, my hubby did most of the work while me, giving opinion. Thank you, lou gong for everything. Muackss.

My husband's family

His heng tai!

Vs my ji muis

my family

Lastly, us..

Happy one month anniversary..

1.11.11

1st of November 2011

Is the day you left us. FOREVER..

It was your lunar birthday that day and the whole family promised to celebrate your birthday with you in the hospital. We went but couldn't sing you a birthday song as you were not feeling well. The moment I stepped into your ward, I feel scared. No, I'm not scared of you but scared that you will leave us. I pray so hard so that it will not happen as I'm really not ready to let you go. I guess that goes the same with everyone else. We waited until 9pm before mum decided that we just cut the cake and give it to others due to you worsen condition. However, bro, Chee How insisted on blowing the cake because it was your wish. It could be your last wish though. So, we lighten up the candle and brought in the cake. Bro told you the name of people in the room which is mum, How, Rong, Hsia, Boy, Ling and Jerry and you nodded. Each of us wished you Happy Birthday, daddy without the b'day song because we couldn't sing it. You tried to breathe hard enough to blow the candle but you can't. Instead, 4 of your children blow it for you, fulfilling your wish. The guard came in out of sudden and chase us out. The visiting hour is over but the guard seldom come and chase people out. Chee How told the guard that you are in critical condition but the guard insist that we either leave or wait outside. Not having any choices, we left reluctantly. How and I plan to go to hospital early morning to meet with the doctor to discuss if is it ok if you discharge. But you didn't give us a chance to do so. I was about to reach Prima Setapak where I received a call from Hsia saying that you have passed away. I don't know how to react and tears just drop. After hanging up, I told Boy the news and rushed Jerry to fetch us back to hospital. When we reached, I thought my siblings are already there but no, only mum and my uncle is there. I went into your ward calmly but couldn't hold my tears when I saw you lying down on the bed with your eyes close. My heart shattered into pieces. Knowing that you already left us forever makes me cry harder. You will not response to any of my actions anymore.. Losing you is like losing everything..

You are the shelter of my life throughout my 23 years of living. Now that you are gone, I find it very hard to accept. During the 3 days of your funeral, each time when I stand next to your coffin and look at you, I will cry because you left and will not come back anymore. Not being to talk to you every weekend when I'm back home and no one to listen to my ranting. You played an important part in my life. Everyone that knows me long enough will know that. I'm always a daddy's girl. Everytime when I faced any problem, I will run back to you because I know you will comfort me and find me a solution without fail. I miss your smile, your joke, your temper, and everything about you.

But I know, this is a better option than leaving you suffering. Seeing you in the hospital with all the tubes and injections really breaks my heart. At least now, you are not feeling any pain and you are free from disease. You are really a good father. Even after you left, you still settle my problem and make everything so smooth for me. You left on the week of my wedding. Initially, I was forced to choose between your funeral and my wedding. I really don't know how to choose but in the end, you make things right again. I can attend both without having to choose either party. Then, you reminded mummy that they have to attend my wedding as well so she came and talk to me about it. However, I cannot make any decision so I make her discuss with bro. She secretly went and talk to you the next morning and asked for your permission is it ok if they all go to my wedding and you said yes instantly.. Thank you daddy for being such a great father.

The impact of your death is so strong that I took weeks to finally being able to write a blog post about you. Even talking about it makes my tears drop. Now, I'm learning to let you go but that doesn't mean I'm forgetting you.. You will still remembered in my heart, forever. We are keeping your picture in the living room so that we can always see you and feel your presence. I promise I will take good care of myself, mummy and other siblings. Rest in peace daddy..

I really miss your smile..

Partly cloudy

My life turns dark suddenly.. It is not the fact that I want or wish to accept. But this is what we called LIFE.. We just have to accept everything that comes to us. Deal with it and go on with life.. But, I'm really really not ready to let go. So, I will just hold on as tight as possible. Maybe it is a very selfish act but I just wants you to stay longer..

I'm finally being able to see you yesterday. You were not the person I used to know anymore.. You are now getting thinner and pale lying on the bed. It hurts me so much seeing you on that bed that I wished it was me so badly. I really wish I can share your pain so that one day, I will be able to see the happy you again.

I really miss the old and healthy you..

MIA

Can you believe it? My last post is on 21st of May.. Oh how time flies.. I'm so tied up with assignments and also family matter. After my brother's wedding, I have to readjust my life to fit into my tight schedule. Not really tight actually but the gap in between classes is killing me.

4 out of 5 days, I have 8am class.. 4 out of 5 days, my classes have gaps of 5 hours in between. 2 out of 5 days, I have class until 8pm.. How nice my schedule is right? And my group got canceled twice for 6pm class almost very last minute.. Yeah, that is how suck my schedule is. And I have lots of assignment requires shooting and writing script this semester. Documentary, news gathering, creative programs, and etc. I have one script due next week and I still don't have time to write it.

My cheque for PC Fair is just release and I have to go back to the office to collect it. Damm. Last time, they will bank in for me. When I ask them do they need the shirt back and they said no. Now, they want me to send back the shirt before they release the salary. Wtf.. So maQfan.. Ish.. I have to waste my time to go to Damansara again. Geram..

As for the boyf and I, we are happy although we spend less time together. He will take the initiative to accompany me every Wednesday. Love him.. :) In few months' time, we will be together for 3 years already. I'm so excited about it..

China trip.. Finally

Yeah!! Finally I have time to write about my China trip. It took forever to just load these pictures.. Well, it was a very backdated post which I apologized numerous time for it.. Lol.. So, this is it.. My 1st day in China is basically me arriving in Pudong International Airport at 7.00am and then went out of departure gate at 7.30am.. I have to wait for my brother because he is late. Oh, it's raining that day so it is super cold. We have to take public transport aka train and bus to reach my brother's apartment. We went to breakfast first b4 heading home. I'm dead hungry. Their breakfast is so different than ours. They had healthy breakfast such as porridge, soya bean and also yao char kuai. Hmm.. I grab some yao char kuai and soya bean. We headed back to my brother's apartment after that. Dad, mum and I been sleeping in until afternoon. The weather is so cold that dad, mum and I couldn't get used to it. We had lunch and then took bus to Nanjing Road. Hmm.. A place to shop but too bad, it's raining the whole day.. Boo~~ Their bus driver drives like a mad cow. It's super fast and super dangerous. Super scary too. We meet my brother in Nanjing Road and had steamboat for dinner.. Nicest thing to eat when the weather is so cold. I've posted the picture of my steamboat dinner earlier so I will not post it again.. Hehe..

Even it is raining, people still went to Nanjing Road which includes me and my family as well.. It was a nice experience walking under the rain and luckily, I didn't catch a cold.

We are one happy family posting under the rain.. Lol.. Too bad, my sister and younger brother couldn't join us.. You can imagine how cold it is by the layers of clothes we wear.. It's not even winter for god sake.

The next day, sister in law (1st one) brought us to sightseeing in Shanghai. We went to Oriental Pearl Tower (I'm not sure with the name) and we can see Shanghai from there. It is beautiful and KL is nothing near that.. LOL.. I'm not in the pictures because I'm the camera girl.. It was fun but you will get bored because keeps seeing the same thing.

Then, we went to a quite famous street which I forgot the name.. I have to ask my brother.. But it is very oriental type of street and you can get lots of nice snacks there..

Look, it's my daddy posing in front of Haagen Daaz holding the "bing tong wu lou". In drama, the "bing tong wu lou" looks very nice but in actual, it is kind of sour and it has seeds in it.. And the sugar coated outside is kind of hard.. But worth the try though..

The best Xiao Long Bao in Shanghai. Lots of people is queuing for it.. And super cheap also.. RMB 7.50 for 16 Xiao Long Bao.. Can you imagine it? 4 of us shared 16 Xiao Long Bao while waiting for my brother to meet us after work.

Ta-da.. The yummylicious Xiao Long Bao ever.. We have to queue quite long to buy it and my mum drop the precious first because the soup is too hot.. Hahaha.. She didn't master the skill yet. Soon enough, she learn how to eat a Xiao Long Bao when my sister in law teach her.. Looking at it makes me crave for it.. Yum Yum..

Dad, mum and I pose together. Did you notice that my smile looks a little bit awkward? That is because I was eating the "bing tong wu lou". Lol.. It looks rather weird but not too obvious.. I'm still waiting for my brother to come.. We couldn't wait any longer coz we are tired. So, we went to Haagen Daaz to chill while waiting..

A very nice cup of hot English Breakfast Tea and also a platter of ice cream and cookies.. I find this cup of tea is so nice so I skipped that platter.. After chilling in Haagen Daaz, we went to The Bund..

You can catch up some nice scenery here where you can see the highest building in Shanghai and also Oriental Pearl Tower.. I forgot the name of the highest building because my sister in law only tells me in Chinese.. Sorry, you all have to check it out yourself.

This is the other side where you can see the hotels and building in The Bund.. The scenery is basically killing. It is so nice and the cold weather fits perfectly.

I love the lighting here.. Lol.. Look at the river and you wouldn't believe that there is actually a tunnel right under the river. Shanghai is so so advanced. They even build a tunnel under a river.

We went sightseeing again and I caught a priceless pose of my brother.. He purposely pose it for me la.. See how dramatic my brother is..

The very next day, we went to China Pavilion.. The ticket is so cheap, it only cost us RMB 20 for a person. But the queue is killing. We practically queue for 2 hours to get into the pavilion. It will be demolish in May so I guess it worth queuing right?

Daddy is happy because we bought the ticket without have to queue but what he doesn't know is the queue is not start yet. Luckily the weather is nice enough for us to queue or else I will sure pengsan lo..

It is the biggest among all in Shanghai Expo.. I only manage to get in this one as the others are all demolished.. Boohoo~~

I love this painting very much and it is indeed the nicest thing in the pavilion. It is basically a drawing and it can move. It can also switch from day to night. You can see how the people inside the drawing works and also do their daily stuff.. It is so amazing.. This is the night view.

While this is the day view.. It was a very long electronic drawing and I was so in love with it. I spend quite long there just looking and taking pictures of it.

Look at the crazy queue.. I took it when I was inside the Pavilion. It is freaking insane okay. Not only tourist is going in but local as well.. People in China is so freaking scary because there are peoples everywhere..

My brother took leave and brought us to Suzhou. We went to Tiger Hill while my brother and sister in law went and try on the wedding dress. We were shivering cold but having ice cream at the same time.. The feeling is superb. We have to walk up the hill but the lazy us decided to pay for the shutter and let them drive us up the hill instead.. Then, we slowly walk down by ourselves.

The famous tower. What is it famous for? For not being straight.. Lol.. I didn't take a picture with it because my brother is not with me and no one taking picture for me.. *sob*

Mummy was so clumsy that she fell down while walking. In the end, her leg bengkak and we have to rush back to Shanghai. But, we manage to catch a picture and also see how my father is being caring towards mummy because he is holding her all the time. He scared that she might fall down again.. *smiles*

The reason of falling down? She was too concentrate on the flowers. She thinks they are very nice.. So I took a picture of her and the flower..

I actually went to Shanghai Zoo with my parents because we got nothing to do. My brother and sister in law have to bring her parents to do their visa. So, I happened to bump into Cindy there.. LOL.. It's a swan btw. I didn't know I will meet Cindy even when I'm in china..I feel so touched..

Chow chow.. Can you imagine that? They even have pet area in the zoo where there are lots of dogs there. I wanted to bring them back so much.. But I guess I will be arrested so I just took pictures of them.. Plus my boy loves Chow Chow so much.. So this is for him..

The main attraction that brought us to the zoo is this, PANDA!! It is a bit dirty but hey, I see a real panda before and not just girls with dark eye circle..

We went back to the building to take pictures while waiting for my sister in law and her parents to come and meet us.. You decide, who does my brother looks like? Dad or mum?

Oriental Pearl Tower that looks very nice when the sun is shinning.. Owh, I want to go back again.. Honestly, I keep seeing Oriental Pearl Tower when I was in China until I was so sien of seeing it.. Then, when I'm back to KL, all I see was KLCC..

Happy family with nice scenery.. We went and meet the in laws and they were so friendly.. I like them.. Hahaha.. And they like me too.. How I know that? Because my sister in law told me when they came and stay with us for a month.. Now that they are finally back, I missed them..

Night scene of The Bund.. It's beautiful isn't it? We took it from Haagen Daaz in the opposite.. Enjoying ice cream and scenery.. Seriously, I had too much of Haagen Daaz in China until I'm so afraid to eat it. My brother got lots cash coupons so he lets us use it.. But it was too heavy for my liking.. I prefer mild or maybe fruit taste..

Last day, daddy was so excited because we can finally go home.. He is not very used to food in China.. My brother decided to let us try on this bullet train that takes only 8 minutes to the airport. And that boots makes me have to take it off in airport.. Arghh.. So mafan..

And lastly, a picture of me with the train's full speed.. 431 km/h.. It was very fast and convenient.. It was a tiring 11 days because I was carrying my dslr with me and it is very heavy.. But I had fun minus the part where I throw tantrums at my parents.. Sorry, daddy and mummy.. And also the part where I have to email my boyfriend because facebook, twitter and blogspot is banned in China.. Luckily I get to skype with him once a while.. I miss him so much during my stay in China..

And now, he will be going to China soon and I will miss him.. :( This is a very brief post about my trip and I hope you all like it..

My apologies

I know I promised to blog once I'm back from Seremban but I didn't.. My bad okay? I'm sorry!! I have a very good reason for this, I promise you! I have guests in my house and my elder brother is BACK!! Which means I got no Internet to use because my house don't not have Wifi. *don't stare at me* Like I mentioned just now, I have guests which is my sister in law's parents. So, being the only one who don't need to work or study, I have to bring them out.. Or said accompany my brother to bring them out. Hahaha.. There are lots of wedding stuff needs to be done and I went out almost everyday. Now my waist and leg is like cacat already. Why I can blog now? Currently back to KL for my younger brother's orientation. Yeah, having a brother is troublesome but having 2 means double the trouble.. haha.. But also means double the love.. I got so many things to blog.. Apart from my China trip, Seremban trip (working purposes), KL trip and also Genting trip. I went to so many places in 2 weeks.. No wonder my leg patah d..

My brother's wedding is in 2 weeks time and hopefully we can pull through every obstacles so that my brother will have a very happy wedding.. *finger crossed* Results is out today and thank god I passed!! Thank you Mr Lim.. Classes resuming next week and I want to extend my holiday! Pls! Can I have longer holiday?

I wake up pretty early today for my brother's orientation and been waiting for him since then. 1 more hour to go and I can go back and sleep. I didn't sleep well yesterday.. I really seriously desperately need more sleep.. Thank you.. Byebye!

The end of 1 month holiday

Now, my sweet, boring, hot and you name it holiday is coming to an end. Tomorrow, YES TOMORROW, I will go back to KL.. Hello to busy and super jam city and byebye hometown and also super jam city!!

Ironic huh? When I started my holiday, I wanted to go back to KL so much to just be with my friends.. And now, after one month, I wish to stayed home with my family. Dilemma wey!! But anyway, I still have to go back. Back to the arms of my love one and also my lovely buddies. And just in time for Valentine's. I guess the boyf and I will not celebrate Valentine's as I'm having class on that day itself. We will see how.. Maybe there is a surprise? Maybe not.

Time passed real fast and it's time for class again. I hope college will be kind to us and send us some kind lecturer so that we can finished a very relaxing short semester.

Another headache stuff which is packing. So many things to pack. Then when I'm back to KL, I have to unpack again. Ish.. So mafan.. Is there any machine that can help me pack and unpack? Someone pls invent one, thank you...

I miss my boyfie!!!!!!! Fast fast come and find me!! muahahaha

Happy Chinese New Year, peeps..

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Sorry, I've been busy these few days with family.. Lol... I had fun gambling with my family and I lost.. It's ok cause I only gamble once a year.. Boyf been so nice enough to come to my house almost everyday.. Hehehe.. Happy me.. Now, everyone back to work again and I remained lifeless holiday.. I want to meet up with my friend.. I miss them so much.. One more week to go.. Valentine's Day plus college resumed day.. I guess I will see you all there..

Boyf and I in my grandma house

Daddy and brother.. Look at how much he grows..

Daddy and sis..

Daddy and I

The siblings.. *loves*

And lastly, house decoration..

Memories..

Seriously, I've been too free.. Minus the times when i help daddy and mummy in pasar malam/pagi. Therefore, time other than helping daddy is used to read things that I write 2 or 3 years ago. I realized, lots of things happened in these 2-3 years. Arguments, made up then arguments again. Hell, my life revolves around arguments. I had plenty of arguments with my boyf alone. There are lots of things to complain and upset. Now I remembered, it is not easy for us to come until this stage therefore I must appreciate it. Of course, there were this huge arguments with one of my friend. It was until a point where I feel I totally lost myself and I don't know who to trust anymore. It was a very down moment for me because I was so confused with all the peoples around me. Anyway, it is over and i find it entertaining when I read it all over again. Some are the things that I totally forgot about it. Memories.... Amazing isn't it?

I don't remember if I post it but I did jot down my thoughts on peoples and life. I've been thru lots of ups and downs. Yeah, you must be thinking, how much a 23 years old can go thru? I bet my life ain't easy because of the failure that I faced and every other problems. I definitely fall more and also gained more.

However, everything of the above makes me realized that FAMILY is always the best. No matter how, they will stood by your side no matter what. I really love my family despite losing one of my dearest last month which is my Velvet darling. He is definitely one of my family and I missed him so so much. Every now or then, things will reminds me very much of him. Now that he is gone, all we left with is memories with him. I do hope that he will be in a better family although I will curse that family for kidnapping him.. Definitely learn more and become more mature in everything.

Tomorrow will be family day because I'm going to supermarket with parents and siblings to get CNY stuff, drinks, snacks and etc.

I'm not emo ok.. Just thoughts..

xoxo, Ling

Getting high..

Second day of holiday.. I'm still doing nothing much except catching up with friends and also family.. *loves* Yesterday, I went to the airport to send my cousin who went to New Zealand. I guess she reach there safe and sound already.. I had a small bbq session with family plus boyf.. It is so fun. My brother got inspired to have a bbq session when he saw mum is doing kuih kapit. So, we bbq 17 chicken wings and some breast meat.. We had fun chatting and making fun of each other.. Somemore feeling super full. After bbq, we all clean the things and floors happily.. Hahaha..

Today, I went to airport another time to send my brother because he is going to Vietnam. No worries, he will be back again soon with his wifey aka my sister in law. I've been sitting in the car half of the day because after going to airport, daddy went to Assuntha to get some document certified then to Petaling Street. I saw a very very cute Chip Chip luggage in Petaling Street!! I want!! No time to ask for price.. Will do it some other time.. I need a big big luggage when I go to China in March.. Feel like packing the whole house.. No la.. Kua cheong only.. Maybe whole room la. Hahahaha.. Can't wait to see my brother wedding picture.. And also my sister in law..

I guess I should start unpack tomorrow or my sis will kill me!! Lolz.. And also I realized my hair is very long now I feel like cutting it.. Yeah!! Cut hair! Favourite but usually will regret after that.. Hahahaha.. I'm super high now..

My boyfie change my line to prepaid without telling me 1st.. Ish ish.. But still need to change it sooner or later.. No choice.. But he should inform me earlier la!!! Hmmph..

First day in exam..

Now, I'm watching Korean drama and totally don't have the mood to study because I feel so exhausted. I finished my 1st paper which is Statistic feeling exhausted and couldn't put in anything else into my brain. I decided to rest tonight and study tomorrow. Not that English is not important but I was too tired to study.. Statistic really takes up most of my brain juice today. I went into the exam hall feeling extremely nervous because I'm so worried that I don't know how to do. In the end, I don't have enough time to finish all the question. Blame it all on the graph paper because the box is so small and very hard to calculate. Anyway, what is done is done.. Let's just pray that I can pass this paper.. *keep my finger crossed*

I miss home!! I want to go home and enjoy my holiday with my family. CNY is approaching and I will love to spend it with my love ones. I miss Velvet out of sudden. My 2011 CNY will not be the same anymore. There will be no more hugging Velvet because he is too scared of fireworks. And also decorating his lovely home. I will definitely feel the loss during CNY.

Because of exam, I didn't meet my lovely boyf for so many days already. I miss him so much.. I miss having him with me. I miss all the moments spend with him. He is been going through tough times at this moment because of work. I'm not there for him but I will give him moral support of course. I hope he will go through this soon enough and gained back himself.

I love you, lao gong!! Muackss..

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone!!

You must be wondering how I spent my New Year Eve, right? Well well well... I spent it at home talking on the phone with the boyf.. Hahahahah.. Lame, I know.. Since it falls on a Friday so I thought why not come home.. I didn't want to squeeze with people outside as I'm not feeling that well recently.. I scared I might faint anytime. Lolz. For the first time since Diploma, B5 did not celebrate New Year together.. But I know our hearts are together for sure..

Brand new year, brand new thinking.. I've learned to accept the fact that Velvet is gone for good. But the memories with him will always be with me.. Never change..

I love you Velvet!!

As for now, I will not have any pet because losing it or watching it die breaks me into pieces.. Maybe, in the future I will get a pet but definitely not now.. My boyf asked me to buy tortoise as a pet because they can definitely live longer.. I wonder.. Hahaha..

I shall leave the past behind and look forward.. My final's is approaching and I have yet start studying.. That is so normal for a last minute person like me.. However, I hope I can change this very bad habit this year.. I should plan my works accordingly.. And also to blog more..

So, I guess it's time to study.. Bye everyone.. Enjoy your New Year!

How do I live without you?

It't the last day of 2010. Seriously, 2010 has not been good to me. Finally graduated from Diploma and continued my Advanced Diploma. I realized that Advance is so much difficult and need more effort. But good things is I get a bunch of new friends. And totally glad because that happened. Other than that will be seeing my friends flies oversea to further their study. Yes, I'm talking about you, Woon and Tian Long.. I miss all the times we spent together. Without the both of you, there is less joy and laughter.. Looking forward for your return.. As for Hee Boon, I'm sorry because we didn't spend more time together and I will try to make it for you in 2011.. Pinkie darling, how could I forget you.. I will definitely meet you up after my exam.. Ah, friends do come and go.. You will have new one in your life but you will also have someone who leave your life. That's life.

As for relationship, well it is consider ok despite we have arguments over the year. But that is consider normal for a couple right? Boyf been working very hard this year and managed to fulfill his target for this year which I'm truly proud of him. Looking back, it's been 2 and a half year we've together and seriously, I never thought I will be in a relationship for this long.. Lolz. But the truth proves to me that I can.. I really hope next year will be a better year for both of us. Love you, lao gong..

Finally, family.. I guess 2010 is really not a good year.. Brother been coming home lesses than previous years and then daddy is sick.. Now, even my lovely Velvet is missing. But but I guess 2011 will definitely be better as Ko will get marry next year.. If I ever have a wishlist, it will be to have my Velvet back. Then, a very joyful and prosperous year for my friends and family.. I learned that this is the most important things in life rather than wanted to buy this and that.. Of course, I still have something that I wanted which is my G12.. Wakakakaka..

Yesterday, I was so moody and gloomy because I dreamed of Velvet. The dream is like this, I walked into my house and saw my Velvet. I asked daddy, Dad, Velvet is back!! I feel so so so happy and went to hug him.. When I was about to ask daddy how did he come back, I was awake. It hits me real hard because it is just a dream. I almost cried because it is just like giving me hope and then taking it away. So, I started my day feeling sad. I rarely talk to my friends in class and when they asked what is wrong, I couldn't tell because I feel like crying.. I just don't understand why, why do you want to take other people's dog? I will not use the word steal because they might be kind to save my Velvet from being ran over by cars. But then, don't you think their family will be extremely worry about him? Whenever I talk about Velvet, I feel like crying.. I guess I just have to accept the facts now.. It's been one week already.. I need more time.. and it will be best if I could turn back time..